第10章 PART II(4)
- An Outcast of the Islands
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- 2016-05-31 23:20:35
You will not forget your servant who called you here.Have I not spoken the truth?She has made roast meat of his heart."With a horizontal sweep of his arm Abdulla seemed to push away that last statement,and said slowly,with much meaning--"He must be perfectly safe;do you understand?Perfectly safe--as if he was amongst his own people--till...""Till when?"whispered Babalatchi.
"Till I speak,"said Abdulla."As to Omar."He hesitated for a moment,then went on very low:"He is very old.""Hai-ya!Old and sick,"murmured Babalatchi,with sudden melancholy.
"He wanted me to kill that white man.He begged me to have him killed at once,"said Abdulla,contemptuously,moving again towards the gate.
"He is impatient,like those who feel death near them,"exclaimed Babalatchi,apologetically.
"Omar shall dwell with me,"went on Abdulla,"when...But no matter.Remember!The white man must be safe.""He lives in your shadow,"answered Babalatchi,solemnly."It is enough!"He touched his forehead and fell back to let Abdulla go first.
And now they are back in the courtyard wherefrom,at their appearance,listlessness vanishes,and all the faces become alert and interested once more.Lakamba approaches his guest,but looks at Babalatchi,who reassures him by a confident nod.
Lakamba clumsily attempts a smile,and looking,with natural and ineradicable sulkiness,from under his eyebrows at the man whom he wants to honour,asks whether he would condescend to visit the place of sitting down and take food.Or perhaps he would prefer to give himself up to repose?The house is his,and what is in it,and those many men that stand afar watching the interview are his.Syed Abdulla presses his host's hand to his breast,and informs him in a confidential murmur that his habits are ascetic and his temperament inclines to melancholy.No rest;no food;no use whatever for those many men who are his.Syed Abdulla is impatient to be gone.Lakamba is sorrowful but polite,in his hesitating,gloomy way.Tuan Abdulla must have fresh boatmen,and many,to shorten the dark and fatiguing road.Hai-ya!
There!Boats!
By the riverside indistinct forms leap into a noisy and disorderly activity.There are cries,orders,banter,abuse.
Torches blaze sending out much more smoke than light,and in their red glare Babalatchi comes up to say that the boats are ready.
Through that lurid glare Syed Abdulla,in his long white gown,seems to glide fantastically,like a dignified apparition attended by two inferior shades,and stands for a moment at the landing-place to take leave of his host and ally--whom he loves.
Syed Abdulla says so distinctly before embarking,and takes his seat in the middle of the canoe under a small canopy of blue calico stretched on four sticks.Before and behind Syed Abdulla,the men squatting by the gunwales hold high the blades of their paddles in readiness for a dip,all together.Ready?Not yet.
Hold on all!Syed Abdulla speaks again,while Lakamba and Babalatchi stand close on the bank to hear his words.His words are encouraging.Before the sun rises for the second time they shall meet,and Syed Abdulla's ship shall float on the waters of this river--at last!Lakamba and Babalatchi have no doubt--if Allah wills.They are in the hands of the Compassionate.No doubt.And so is Syed Abdulla,the great trader who does not know what the word failure means;and so is the white man--the smartest business man in the islands--who is lying now by Omar's fire with his head on Aissa's lap,while Syed Abdulla flies down the muddy river with current and paddles between the sombre walls of the sleeping forest;on his way to the clear and open sea where the Lord of the Isles (formerly of Greenock,but condemned,sold,and registered now as of Penang)waits for its owner,and swings erratically at anchor in the currents of the capricious tide,under the crumbling red cliffs of Tanjong Mirrah.
For some time Lakamba,Sahamin,and Bahassoen looked silently into the humid darkness which had swallowed the big canoe that carried Abdulla and his unvarying good fortune.Then the two guests broke into a talk expressive of their joyful anticipations.The venerable Sahamin,as became his advanced age,found his delight in speculation as to the activities of a rather remote future.He would buy praus,he would send expeditions up the river,he would enlarge his trade,and,backed by Abdulla's capital,he would grow rich in a very few years.
Very few.Meantime it would be a good thing to interview Almayer to-morrow and,profiting by the last day of the hated man's prosperity,obtain some goods from him on credit.Sahamin thought it could be done by skilful wheedling.After all,that son of Satan was a fool,and the thing was worth doing,because the coming revolution would wipe all debts out.Sahamin did not mind imparting that idea to his companions,with much senile chuckling,while they strolled together from the riverside towards the residence.The bull-necked Lakamba,listening with pouted lips without the sign of a smile,without a gleam in his dull,bloodshot eyes,shuffled slowly across the courtyard between his two guests.But suddenly Bahassoen broke in upon the old man's prattle with the generous enthusiasm of his youth...
Trading was very good.But was the change that would make them happy effected yet?The white man should be despoiled with a strong hand!...He grew excited,spoke very loud,and his further discourse,delivered with his hand on the hilt of his sword,dealt incoherently with the honourable topics of throat-cutting,fire-raising,and with the far-famed valour of his ancestors.
Babalatchi remained behind,alone with the greatness of his conceptions.The sagacious statesman of Sambir sent a scornful glance after his noble protector and his noble protector's friends,and then stood meditating about that future which to the others seemed so assured.Not so to Babalatchi,who paid the penalty of his wisdom by a vague sense of insecurity that kept sleep at arm's length from his tired body.When he thought at last of leaving the waterside,it was only to strike a path for himself and to creep along the fences,avoiding the middle of the courtyard where small fires glimmered and winked as though the sinister darkness there had reflected the stars of the serene heaven.He slunk past the wicket-gate of Omar's enclosure,and crept on patiently along the light bamboo palisade till he was stopped by the angle where it joined the heavy stockade of Lakamba's private ground.Standing there,he could look over the fence and see Omar's hut and the fire before its door.He could also see the shadow of two human beings sitting between him and the red glow.A man and a woman.The sight seemed to inspire the careworn sage with a frivolous desire to sing.It could hardly be called a song;it was more in the nature of a recitative without any rhythm,delivered rapidly but distinctly in a croaking and unsteady voice;and if Babalatchi considered it a song,then it was a song with a purpose and,perhaps for that reason,artistically defective.It had all the imperfections of unskilful improvisation and its subject was gruesome.It told a tale of shipwreck and of thirst,and of one brother killing another for the sake of a gourd of water.A repulsive story which might have had a purpose but possessed no moral whatever.
Yet it must have pleased Babalatchi for he repeated it twice,the second time even in louder tones than at first,causing a disturbance amongst the white rice-birds and the wild fruit-pigeons which roosted on the boughs of the big tree growing in Omar's compound.There was in the thick foliage above the singer's head a confused beating of wings,sleepy remarks in bird-language,a sharp stir of leaves.The forms by the fire moved;the shadow of the woman altered its shape,and Babalatchi's song was cut short abruptly by a fit of soft and persistent coughing.He did not try to resume his efforts after that interruption,but went away stealthily to seek--if not sleep--then,at least,repose.
CHAPTER SIX
As soon as Abdulla and his companions had left the enclosure,Aissa approached Willems and stood by his side.He took no notice of her expectant attitude till she touched him gently,when he turned furiously upon her and,tearing off her face-veil,trampled upon it as though it had been a mortal enemy.She looked at him with the faint smile of patient curiosity,with the puzzled interest of ignorance watching the running of a complicated piece of machinery.After he had exhausted his rage,he stood again severe and unbending looking down at the fire,but the touch of her fingers at the nape of his neck effaced instantly the hard lines round his mouth;his eyes wavered uneasily;his lips trembled slightly.Starting with the unresisting rapidity of a particle of iron--which,quiescent one moment,leaps in the next to a powerful magnet--he moved forward,caught her in his arms and pressed her violently to his breast.
He released her as suddenly,and she stumbled a little,stepped back,breathed quickly through her parted lips,and said in a tone of pleased reproof--"O Fool-man!And if you had killed me in your strong arms what would you have done?""You want to live...and to run away from me again,"he said gently."Tell me--do you?"She moved towards him with very short steps,her head a little on one side,hands on hips,with a slight balancing of her body:an approach more tantalizing than an escape.He looked on,eager--charmed.She spoke jestingly.
"What am I to say to a man who has been away three days from me?
Three!"she repeated,holding up playfully three fingers before Willems'eyes.He snatched at the hand,but she was on her guard and whisked it behind her back.
"No!"she said."I cannot be caught.But I will come.I am coming myself because I like.Do not move.Do not touch me with your mighty hands,O child!"As she spoke she made a step nearer,then another.Willems did not stir.Pressing against him she stood on tiptoe to look into his eyes,and her own seemed to grow bigger,glistening and tender,appealing and promising.With that look she drew the man's soul away from him through his immobile pupils,and from Willems'features the spark of reason vanished under her gaze and was replaced by an appearance of physical well-being,an ecstasy of the senses which had taken possession of his rigid body;an ecstasy that drove out regrets,hesitation and doubt,and proclaimed its terrible work by an appalling aspect of idiotic beatitude.He never stirred a limb,hardly breathed,but stood in stiff immobility,absorbing the delight of her close contact by every pore.
"Closer!Closer!"he murmured.
Slowly she raised her arms,put them over his shoulders,and clasping her hands at the back of his neck,swung off the full length of her arms.Her head fell back,the eyelids dropped slightly,and her thick hair hung straight down:a mass of ebony touched by the red gleams of the fire.He stood unyielding under the strain,as solid and motionless as one of the big trees of the surrounding forests;and his eyes looked at the modelling of her chin,at the outline of her neck,at the swelling lines of her bosom,with the famished and concentrated expression of a starving man looking at food.She drew herself up to him and rubbed her head against his cheek slowly and gently.He sighed.
She,with her hands still on his shoulders,glanced up at the placid stars and said--"The night is half gone.We shall finish it by this fire.By this fire you shall tell me all:your words and Syed Abdulla's words;and listening to you I shall forget the three days--because I am good.Tell me--am I good?"He said "Yes"dreamily,and she ran off towards the big house.
When she came back,balancing a roll of fine mats on her head,he had replenished the fire and was ready to help her in arranging a couch on the side of it nearest to the hut.She sank down with a quick but gracefully controlled movement,and he threw himself full length with impatient haste,as if he wished to forestall somebody.She took his head on her knees,and when he felt her hands touching his face,her fingers playing with his hair,he had an expression of being taken possession of;he experienced a sense of peace,of rest,of happiness,and of soothing delight.
His hands strayed upwards about her neck,and he drew her down so as to have her face above his.Then he whispered--"I wish Icould die like this--now!"She looked at him with her big sombre eyes,in which there was no responsive light.His thought was so remote from her understanding that she let the words pass by unnoticed,like the breath of the wind,like the flight of a cloud.Woman though she was,she could not comprehend,in her simplicity,the tremendous compliment of that speech,that whisper of deadly happiness,so sincere,so spontaneous,coming so straight from the heart--like every corruption.It was the voice of madness,of a delirious peace,of happiness that is infamous,cowardly,and so exquisite that the debased mind refuses to contemplate its termination:for to the victims of such happiness the moment of its ceasing is the beginning afresh of that torture which is its price.
With her brows slightly knitted in the determined preoccupation of her own desires,she said--"Now tell me all.All the words spoken between you and Syed Abdulla."Tell what?What words?Her voice recalled back the consciousness that had departed under her touch,and he became aware of the passing minutes every one of which was like a reproach;of those minutes that falling,slow,reluctant,irresistible into the past,marked his footsteps on the way to perdition.Not that he had any conviction about it,any notion of the possible ending on that painful road.It was an indistinct feeling,a threat of suffering like the confused warning of coming disease,an inarticulate monition of evil made up of fear and pleasure,of resignation and of revolt.He was ashamed of his state of mind.After all,what was he afraid of?
Were those scruples?Why that hesitation to think,to speak of what he intended doing?Scruples were for imbeciles.His clear duty was to make himself happy.Did he ever take an oath of fidelity to Lingard?No.Well then--he would not let any interest of that old fool stand between Willems and Willems'
happiness.Happiness?Was he not,perchance,on a false track?
Happiness meant money.Much money.At least he had always thought so till he had experienced those new sensations which...
Aissa's question,repeated impatiently,interrupted his musings,and looking up at her face shining above him in the dim light of the fire he stretched his limbs luxuriously and obedient to her desire,he spoke slowly and hardly above his breath.She,with her head close to his lips,listened absorbed,interested,in attentive immobility.The many noises of the great courtyard were hushed up gradually by the sleep that stilled all voices and closed all eyes.Then somebody droned out a song with a nasal drawl at the end of every verse.He stirred.She put her hand suddenly on his lips and sat upright.There was a feeble coughing,a rustle of leaves,and then a complete silence took possession of the land;a silence cold,mournful,profound;more like death than peace;more hard to bear than the fiercest tumult.As soon as she removed her hand he hastened to speak,so insupportable to him was that stillness perfect and absolute in which his thoughts seemed to ring with the loudness of shouts.
"Who was there making that noise?"he asked.
"I do not know.He is gone now,"she answered,hastily."Tell me,you will not return to your people;not without me.Not with me.Do you promise?""I have promised already.I have no people of my own.Have Inot told you,that you are everybody to me?""Ah,yes,"she said,slowly,"but I like to hear you say that again--every day,and every night,whenever I ask;and never to be angry because I ask.I am afraid of white women who are shameless and have fierce eyes."She scanned his features close for a moment and added:
"Are they very beautiful?They must be.""I do not know,"he whispered,thoughtfully."And if I ever did know,looking at you I have forgotten.""Forgotten!And for three days and two nights you have forgotten me also!Why?Why were you angry with me when I spoke at first of Tuan Abdulla,in the days when we lived beside the brook?You remembered somebody then.Somebody in the land whence you come.
Your tongue is false.You are white indeed,and your heart is full of deception.I know it.And yet I cannot help believing you when you talk of your love for me.But I am afraid!"He felt flattered and annoyed by her vehemence,and said--"Well,I am with you now.I did come back.And it was you that went away.""When you have helped Abdulla against the Rajah Laut,who is the first of white men,I shall not be afraid any more,"she whispered.
"You must believe what I say when I tell you that there never was another woman;that there is nothing for me to regret,and nothing but my enemies to remember.""Where do you come from?"she said,impulsive and inconsequent,in a passionate whisper."What is that land beyond the great sea from which you come?A land of lies and of evil from which nothing but misfortune ever comes to us--who are not white.Did you not at first ask me to go there with you?That is why I went away.""I shall never ask you again."
"And there is no woman waiting for you there?""No!"said Willems,firmly.
She bent over him.Her lips hovered above his face and her long hair brushed his cheeks.
"You taught me the love of your people which is of the Devil,"she murmured,and bending still lower,she said faintly,"Like this?""Yes,like this!"he answered very low,in a voice that trembled slightly with eagerness;and she pressed suddenly her lips to his while he closed his eyes in an ecstasy of delight.
There was a long interval of silence.She stroked his head with gentle touches,and he lay dreamily,perfectly happy but for the annoyance of an indistinct vision of a well-known figure;a man going away from him and diminishing in a long perspective of fantastic trees,whose every leaf was an eye looking after that man,who walked away growing smaller,but never getting out of sight for all his steady progress.He felt a desire to see him vanish,a hurried impatience of his disappearance,and he watched for it with a careful and irksome effort.There was something familiar about that figure.Why!Himself!He gave a sudden start and opened his eyes,quivering with the emotion of that quick return from so far,of finding himself back by the fire with the rapidity of a flash of lightning.It had been half a dream;he had slumbered in her arms for a few seconds.Only the beginning of a dream--nothing more.But it was some time before he recovered from the shock of seeing himself go away so deliberately,so definitely,so unguardedly;and going away--where?Now,if he had not woke up in time he would never have come back again from there;from whatever place he was going to.He felt indignant.It was like an evasion,like a prisoner breaking his parole--that thing slinking off stealthily while he slept.He was very indignant,and was also astonished at the absurdity of his own emotions.
She felt him tremble,and murmuring tender words,pressed his head to her breast.Again he felt very peaceful with a peace that was as complete as the silence round them.He muttered--"You are tired,Aissa."
She answered so low that it was like a sigh shaped into faint words.
"I shall watch your sleep,O child!"
He lay very quiet,and listened to the beating of her heart.