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I want to frighten him.Besides, he might come and begin a string of abuse or complainings; I'm certain I should recriminate, and God knows where we should end! Will you do so, my good Nelly? You are aware that I am in no way blamable in this matter.What possessed him to turn listener? Heathcliff's talk was outrageous, after you left us; but I could soon have diverted him from Isabella, and the rest meant nothing.Now all is dashed wrong by the fool's craving to hear evil of self, that haunts some people like a demon! Had Edgar never gathered our conversation, he would never have been the worse for it.Really, when he opened on me in that unreasonable tone of displeasure after I had scolded Heathcliff till I was hoarse for him , I did not care, hardly, what they did to each other; especially as I felt that, however the scene closed, we should all be driven asunder for nobody knows how long! Well, if I cannot keep Heathcliff for my friend--if Edgar will be mean and jealous, I'll try to break their hearts by breaking my own.That will be a prompt way of finishing all, when I am pushed to extremity! But it's a deed to be reserved for a forlorn hope; I'd not take Linton by surprise with it.To this point he has been discreet in dreading to provoke me; you must represent the peril of quitting that policy, and remind him of my passionate temper, verging, when kindled, on frenzy.Iwish you could dismiss that apathy out of your countenance, and look rather more anxious about me.'

The stolidity with which I received these instructions was, no doubt, rather exasperating: for they were delivered in perfect sincerity;but I believed a person who could plan the turning of her fits of passion to account, beforehand, might, by exerting her will, manage to control herself tolerably, even while under their influence; and I did not wish to `frighten' her husband, as she said, and multiply his annoyances for the purpose of serving her selfishness.Therefore I said nothing when Imet the master coming towards the parlour; but I took the liberty of turning back to listen whether they would resume their quarrel together.He began to speak first.

`Remain where you are, Catherine,' he said; without any anger in his voice, but with much sorrowful despondency.`I shall not stay.Iam neither come to wrangle nor be reconciled; but I wish just to learn whether, after this evening's events, you intend to continue your intimacy with--`Oh, for mercy's sake,' interrupted the mistress, stamping her foot, `for mercy's sake, let us hear no more of it now! Your cold blood cannot be worked into a fever: your veins are full of ice-water; but mine are boiling, and the sight of such chillness makes them dance.'

`To get rid of me, answer my question,' persevered Mr Linton.

`You must answer it; and that violence does not alarm me.I have found that you can be as stoical as anyone, when you please.Will you give up Heathcliff hereafter, or will you give up me? It is impossible for you to be my friend and his at the same time; and I absolutely require to know which you choose.'

`I require to be let alone!' exclaimed Catherine furiously.`Idemand it! Don't you see I can scarcely stand? Edgar, you--you leave me!'

She rang the bell till it broke with a twang; I entered leisurely.

It was enough to try the temper of a saint, such senseless, wicked rages!

There she lay dashing her head against the arm of the sofa, and grinding her teeth, so that you might fancy she would crash them to splinters! Mr Linton stood looking at her in sudden compunction and fear.He told me to fetch some water.She had no breath for speaking.I brought a glass full; and as she would not drink, I sprinkled it on her face.In a few seconds she stretched herself out stiff, and turned up her eyes, while her cheeks, at once blanched and livid, assumed the aspect of death.Linton looked terrified.

`There is nothing in the world the matter,' I whispered.I did not want him to yield, though I could not help being afraid in my heart.

`She has blood on her lips!' he said, shuddering.

`Never mind!' I answered tartly.And I told him how she had resolved, previous to his coming, on exhibiting a fit of frenzy.I incautiously gave the account aloud, and she heard me; for she started up--her hair flying over her shoulders, her eyes flashing, the muscles of her neck and arms standing out preternaturally.I made up my mind for broken bones, at least;but she only glared about her for an instant, and then rushed from the room.The master directed me to follow; I did, to her chamber door: she hindered me from going farther by securing it against me.

As she never offered to descend to breakfast next morning, I went to ask whether she would have some carried up.`No!' she replied peremptorily.

The same question was repeated at dinner and tea; and again on the morrow after, and received the same answer.Mr Linton, on his part, spent his time in the library, and did not inquire concerning his wife's occupations.

Isabella and he had had an hour's interview, during which he tried to elicit from her some sentiment of proper horror for Heathcliff's advances: but he could make nothing of her evasive replies, and was obliged to close the examination unsatisfactorily; adding, however, a solemn warning, that if she were so insane as to encourage that worthless suitor, it would dissolve all bonds of relationship between herself and him.